After two years I'm back on this site. I'm now 15 and 16 in Feb. and I'm on here because the internet says writing helps, so here I am writing when I really should be in bed sleeping as my first day of school after the Christmas holidays begins tomorrow. not that anyone would care obviously because I'm just some silly school girl writing utter nonsense on an account that know one reads. but. in need to get a point out there and this is it:
     I think its so funny that people watch films about depression or anxiety or anorexia and all sorts of other mental illnesses and they come out the cinema like "that was so emotional and deep, I cant believe things like that happen in the real world". but. as soon as you tell them that you, in fact, have depression and that you've had it for ages, and you stand there waiting for hem to help you, to accept you, and they, in return, start to laugh or look at you funny and say "you're too happy to be depressed" or "no you're not, you're just sad everybody is sad" they tell you that you need to 'get over it' because "others have it worse". And you sit there thinking that you shouldn't have told them, because, it's made you worse - and of course they wouldn't have understood and there must seriously be something wrong with you... maybe its just me.
       If you can't already tell I do indeed suffer from severe clinical depression. but. because my mom thinks its just a stage (clearly just a simple two to three year stage obviously!) she has decided to not get me any medication or taken me to a councillor. I thought this would be a good thing to do, you know share me feelings with the world and so on. but I can't see the point even though I thought there was the start of this post, now, I'm feeling doubtful and even though I will most likely end up posting this I want you to know that even though I think that it's impossible for me to be happy, I really hope your happy. wherever you are    

NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS!!!!

Hi guys :)

so lets just get straight to it:

1.Get my head down and study hard - I choose my options when I go back to school and once I choose the subjects that I want to take I want to make sure that I get the best possible marks for them.

2.Be careful when choosing my options - when I choose my options I want to have chosen them one because I know that I will love them  and two not just because my parents suggested it instead of one I wanted to take.

3.Get fit - now that I'm at the age where I would like to date I want to look and feel good about my self both physically and emotionally and also because I don't like that I'm out of breath so easily.

thanks for reading my new yr's resolutions 

hope to blog again soon

girl unseen out! xx

cupcake queen too skiing??!!!

hi guys :)

OK so, on Monday I got out this mini cupcake maker that i got for Christmas this year but... being me I didn't read the box right so all I saw was 'cupcake maker' which meant that I made enough cake for 12 normal cupcakes. so imagine this I open the cupcake maker and see 7 little gaps where you put the cupcake cases in if you can't already imagine my face it looked like the scream painting... so yeah i spent all afternoon baking and icing 34!!! mini cupcakes which thanks to my lovely dad are nearly completely GONE!!!! I'm laughing as I type this. and the next day (Tuesday) I went skiing at the snow dome with my dad and as I'm skiing my dad wants to teach me how to slow down if I'm in a crowded slope, when he went to show me he slipped on ice thus making a poor employee try and help him up, I on the other hand was very good and only fell over twice throughout the whole day, on purpose though bear in mind there were a lot and I mean A LOT of cute boys working on that day to help me up.

hope to blog again soon,

girl unseen out! xxx

p.s: oh and have a brilliant new year 2015 here we come !!!!!!

hi guys!!!

hi everyone,

I wanted to start with something unique something different but I couldn't as I was at a loss for words so I will start with this: hi guys hope your all enjoying the Christmas holiday!!! enjoy the time off school ( I know I am!!!) relax see some friends go out (or stay in I am ) visit family and enjoy the presents!!!! ESPECIALLY THE PRESENTS ;) ;) 

hope to blog again soon,

girl unseen out xx